11/15 ︎
In Midsummer,
I developed four screens to show simple events that happened. It looks like contexts with sounds and moving images to build a feeling of memory.
Map a mother’s body
Excepting make” each part of body”, next step to think how to arrange them together, looks like a” body”.
I am going to bake words on thanksgiving holiday. It will be much fun to do it with my daughter. It will be mess. she loves mess. my husban will be mad.
11/1 ︎
About why you can’t paint a big one?
Why can't I paint big paintings?
Or why do I struggle with big and small things?
Do I care? I seem not. But sometimes I want to talk about it.
I don't want to. Obviously,
when I say big, it shows more ambition.
I hate these specious and enticing voices.
Do I care? I care, but it seems not.
Are we all the same on these psychological points?
About self-limitation
I found I have many self-limitation,
do you have?
Break it! Wake yourself up! Get tangled with it
Or
check out where the limitation comes from?
Look carefully at its appearance,
see the details, and tell yourself.
Self-limitation won't cover you anymore.
It is about force and reaction.
10/23︎
References:
about how to show the back of an oil painting
about collection
about sewing
projection work
I can imagine that my final work will be like many fingers growing from a claw, like a carnival of many fragments of time, like life reflected in a broken mirror.
re-frame paintings with fiber and old frames.
Zoe Leonard :
10/18 ︎
About the third project( no name yet). When I think about what it should have in the back of the oil painting, What do concrete things I want to draw mean? Which relates to another question? Where are my money and time spent? I try to find answers not from memory and story but from the things I can touch, see, smell, feel, and listen.
I want to fully use the things I bought, but I am picky.
another side to think about the third project is a kind of Pandola jar. driven by curiosity and enticement, when we see a picture of a place, then curious to see the backside. At least, I am always attracted by this form and meaning.
10/11︎
Here comes new materials: mirrors(from Ruth), leaves (from my daughter), and paper( from Dawn.)
10/07︎
The texture of the X-ray may be similar to parchment paper. It is my teeth, part of the body.
see those beautiful lines and shapes. I plan to use parchment paper to build layers, and add sewing.
10/04︎
I try to sew a heart. They could be part of the body.
The most important is the healing process. Each hole is like a target, a place to be hit by something or someone, causing injury, heartbreak, or trauma. I will fix these holes and repair them. It is a healing process.
those already hole-cut paper. they are the left parts of the” parchment flower”.
Zoe Leonard ( I need more reserch)
I made a sample by using transparent pieces. they could project shadows on the wall, some big, some small. I like this head in those shadows
09/29︎
parchment leaves, size, drawing
What do you see? Recording is fun
watercolor paintings, show contents, not each piece of work
nap cutting pieces, Moving, 3D, animation, pop pet
keeping sewing,
parchment paper artist book
wood branch works with hanging
transparent laminations, projection, lighting, moving images
midsummer and parchment may work together; people
parchment paper, part of the body, skin, lung, heart, and umbilical cord(in processing)
fabric and other papers, to make paper
Parchment flowers can continue, garland
09/26 ︎
1, Fall leaves
I find similar sounds between different things, such as baked parchment papers and dry fall leaves. They are both crisp and hoarse sounds. The water is dried, leaving the crunchy tiny components rubbing against each other. However, a rain makes all the fallen leaves quiet. I only hear the low sound of water squeezing out between the gaps of the leaves if I step on it. Waiting for all the fallen leaves to dry again, I will step on them, which creates a natural noise that hear like imitates a smokey throat singer humming. If I mix those leaves with the leaves-shaped baking paper, nobody can distinguish them.
Practice writing in Nicole’s class
I find similar sounds between different things, such as baked parchment papers and dry fall leaves. They are both crisp and hoarse sounds. The water is dried, leaving the crunchy tiny components rubbing against each other. However, a rain makes all the fallen leaves quiet. I only hear the low sound of water squeezing out between the gaps of the leaves if I step on it. Waiting for all the fallen leaves to dry again, I will step on them, which creates a natural noise that hear like imitates a smokey throat singer humming. If I mix those leaves with the leaves-shaped baking paper, nobody can distinguish them.
Practice writing in Nicole’s class
2, 七窍玲珑心 "delicate seven-aperture heart",
Bi Gan loses his heart, 《Investiture of the Gods》,
Lin Daiyu, 《Dream of the Red Chamber or The Story of the Stone 》a couplet describes her, 心比比干多一窍，病如西子胜三分 "with a heart like Bi Gan's, yet even more intelligent(here is a question about intelligent. Actually, this sentence want to express that Daiyu is a sensitive girl, and predicts her tragic life because of heartbreaking ); and with an illness like Xi Zi, yet even more beautiful".
Bi Gan and Lin Daiyu are both Tragic Characters,. Here, I want to connect the people who are sensitive and easily heartbreak, like me.
Just like the parchment paper with many holes on it. Every hole is like a target, a place to be hit, causing injury and heartbreak. More sensitive people, more hols in their soul and heart.
But I want to do something. Maybe decorate those holes or fix or repair them.
09/25 ︎/︎
Baking paper
I picked two branches from the side of the street. the tree branches put some content into my art pieces. I am not sure if I need to reduce its meaning and only focus on its hanging function.
09/22︎
Baking paper
Max Yela 4F special collection :
parchment paper makes a sound because because of its crisp texture after baking. Also, its color is similar skin.
Max( critique nap)Pictures and texts guide the reader's sight and affect the coherence between pages; the climax of the story better not be at the end, ‘’nobody will like it;’’ The text in the book is placed horizontally at the edge, which makes reading difficult;
Max( critique nap)Pictures and texts guide the reader's sight and affect the coherence between pages; the climax of the story better not be at the end, ‘’nobody will like it;’’ The text in the book is placed horizontally at the edge, which makes reading difficult;
09/21 ︎
Midsummer
It begins with pictures of friends' vacations shared on social media (WeChat and Instagram). This makes me miss a vacation that I haven’t had for a while. So, this work started by reviewing the photos of my vacation to Tibet in 2018; it was a wonderful trip memory before I became a mother.
''One day we'll appear in our children's memories, among their grandchildren and people not yet born. Like sexual desire, memory never stops. It pairs the dead with living, real with imaginary beings, dreams with history. ''-page11
The book begins with a description of some photographs that inspired me to create a series of watercolors based on my photos in Tibet
----It is a beautiful trip memory, memory is not accurate, even mistakes and edit time and content what really happened in the past. It splashes a piece view quickly, like driving a car while appreciating two sides of the road; in just a second, the view will pass over.
----Over the years, when I started to describe this trip depend on photos, my daughter engaged with me. I was inspired by her free, unfearly drawing; then, my skills changed because she joined.
-----How people see these abstract paintings. What do you see? My daughter asks frequently. How to break the limited of common sense, knowledge, and concepts.
Learning how comment/story works, presents time, memory
I can describe my paintings in words, and what I see from paintings directly. It will be different with photos, and my daughter’s seeing.
I can describe my paintings in words, and what I see from paintings directly. It will be different with photos, and my daughter’s seeing.
